australia

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I am sitting in our new/old home, i am happy! I really am! And why? For so many reasons to call myself blessed. But more on that later.

For now, i want you to think about something. If you are female, you can more than likely relate to the body-image struggles. You see EVERYWHERE skinny people. You might think that you are fat, disgusting, wobbly, could loose some weight, not fit, need to exercise and/or diet. And all those other thoughts that go through your head. You might feel that when someone gives you feedback, that you aren't good enough. That's what you think,...

Australia vs Estonia

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Anyway, the title might make you think oh this might be competition. Nope, not in any way am i gonna be able to make two wonderful countries compete. Same way it is not a comparison. Well not entirely. It's more like me and my keen observing eyes and what has been seen through my eyes over the last...

2 weeks later...

I open my eyes to hear again the sound of monkeys as the sun gets ready for the day, so does the nature. It sounds like monkeys, but by now i know they aren't. They are fun birds that just make the sound of a monkey to my ears. They are called kookaburra's. I don't want to leave my bed as mornings are cold still. You wouldn't expect that from Australia, as it's commercially usually shown as a sunny place. It is, mostly. But sunny doesn't always mean warm. So how has life been down under? Let me tell you.

I arrive after long travel in Sydney airport, relieved that my long journey is getting...

7 - 27 - 14 % - 68. Read to understand what numbers mean.

7.

For about the last 7 days, i have been mentally really in a bad place. I have blogged previously about anxiety and such. Well this last week has been way worse than every before. My anxiety got to a point where i almost daily cried. Where fear and tension was my daily companion. One day also had a panic attack. That moment when your fears and worries take over your mind and you start crying and crying turns into some sort of breathing weirdness. Not entirely hyperventilating, but like you don't have enough air. You feel paralyzed and weak. Not that you would actually be paralyzed, but...

Home - 34 - stuff&things - 5%

The title is rather strange, i know. But let me explain.

  1. I'll start from the 34. There's 34 days until school is over! Oh wow! I am not sure how to react, how to feel. In some ways i am surprised that OH WOW how fast this year has gone. Also how much i have grown. How much things have changed. My feelings, thoughts, my whole being, my life. Everything. Also how much i have learned, about me mostly. But also about what i believe. Mostly though about how it's so so important to firstly give yourself grace. To take time to REST! Rest is so so important. How to allow, yes allow yourself to...

New meds, loads of side effects and Peter visiting!

So for the last, emm... maybe three weeks, no. Yes, more or less. Maybe four. Anyway, almost a month, i've been on new medication. It's called Sertrone, or Sertrolin. Active ingredient is serotonin. It's for my anxiety, social anxiety, small panic and stuff like that. I got diagnosed with GAD, which is general anxiety disorder. It was too hard living with it on my own and trying to cope and just deal with it, and for a long time i thought i could be strong and handle it. Like usually. But it didn't pass. And i couldn't handle myself. So i though to give meds a try.
Well sad thing is, like...

Australia (part 6 - also the last one of this series)

5th of january.
My time in Australia is starting to end. With this post it will end and we have to part ways, but first.... few more adventures.

We start the day by driving to town again, to resize my ring. Then head off to Urunga, where we'd hope we could go for a boat ride. BUT turns out they have no boats to hire anymore. We head down to the seaside and just have a walk. At one point we do devotions there. It's really nice out there. We have lunch also there, and yet again my stomach isn't as big as i wish it was for all the goodies that Australia has to offer. :D
We continue our day...

Australia (part 5)

2nd january continues.

We left off with some cows and us on our way to another lookout.
At one point during my stay there, i forgot to mention this thing. Peter, my dear Peter, he did something so adorable! He learned how to make coffee just the way i like it. Not like just press a button on a machine, no, no! He ground some beans, put them in the thing where you put ground beans, press them, put that in a coffee machine. Make espresso, foam milk, and make all that into cappuccino for me! How adorable!
Sidetrack a bit from our adventures, but just had to mention. I really see small things...

AUSTRALIA (part 4)

We left off where we just got splashed with water. Well now comes new years eve! First time ever that i have new years eve in a)in another country; b) in another continent; c) in a warm climate! :D Haa! So many firsts through this trip.

So what do you do when you have nothing to do on the last day of the year? Well we went to the cinemas to start with. Watched Good Dinosaur. If i were a kid, i would've cried. (well i'm an adult, i still cry at the movies. Sometimes.). So we saw that. After that we went to have lunch for one of the gifts that we got for christmas, it was a voucher or...

Australia (part 3)

Where were we... oh yes, christmas was celebrated properly now in a warm Australian weather.

Next day (29th of december) Peter's mum and sis took me out wanting to spend some "girl" time with me :) We went to have coffee at Artista i think it was called. Apparently one of the best coffee places in town. And yes it was good, but i had had already two big coffees at home. And third one there was a bit too much, but at least it was a good one! Then we went "op-shopping" as Australians call it. Which for other people who don't know what that means, is second hand shops. We went to quite...

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