prayer

Adversity

 

What if i told you that you would face lots of hardships. You will have troubles, worries, problems. Adversity. Like it's for sure you will get there. 

What if every area in your life looked miserable. Sad. Hard. Impossible. Troublesome. Worrying. Concerning. What then? What would you do? 

Adversity in our lives is inevitable. This is what Google says adversity is: 

 

So here's an honest confession. My life lately, well not very lately, for quite a long time, has been full of adversity. Fairly unpleasant amount of situations. Circumstances. And by the long time i mean, year, two...

Mommy thoughts - parenthood

21 weeks now I have been a mom. Even though our little one is in my tummy for now - that on its own makes me a mother. Taking care of a child starts in the womb. At least for me and us. I know that baby needs nutrition, occasional gentle exercise (mostly walks for us). I know how I feel comfortable and your body or the baby will let you know when you are doing something wrong. Be it your body making you have acid because you ate the wrong things, or baby kicking around inside you when you are laying on the wrong side. (that last one hasn't happened to me yet, but I've heard that some moms...

Blessed time with challenges

It's around 4am on a tuesday morning. I sit at our new kitchen table (new for us, but got it from a second hand), and take sips from my coffee (machine was a gift <3 ). Another morning where i couldn't sleep much. But it's alright. I wake up to my husband, every single day. It is a blessing, to be married. I am blessed, to have this incredible kind generous funny man in my life. But it has not been an easy road, as most of my readers know.

Very early to be typing something sensible, but thought to try still. After all, i must've left my readers wondering what has happened. Well after...

7 - 27 - 14 % - 68. Read to understand what numbers mean.

7.

For about the last 7 days, i have been mentally really in a bad place. I have blogged previously about anxiety and such. Well this last week has been way worse than every before. My anxiety got to a point where i almost daily cried. Where fear and tension was my daily companion. One day also had a panic attack. That moment when your fears and worries take over your mind and you start crying and crying turns into some sort of breathing weirdness. Not entirely hyperventilating, but like you don't have enough air. You feel paralyzed and weak. Not that you would actually be paralyzed, but...

Support

A while ago i shared how i don't have jobs anymore. I used to have two, for those who didn't hear that news. But for two different reasons, i don't have them anymore. Which means, i only rely on support. I do try to not spend, well almost anything, because i don't have my own income anymore. But i am still surviving! Yes, that is a word i'd use, because well it is very "challenging" to live like this. I use the word challenging, because using a word problematic or hard, isn't usually shared in christian circles. But it is very hard. I don't say this because you'd feel pity on me. I share...

Prayer - unbelief, mediocre, greediness?

I use a Bible app on my phone where i have a Bible reading plan called Life application study Bible devotion. It's a year long plan with a small devotion and a verse or two after that. App is found here with their online version too if you wish to see: BIBLE

Anyway, through the years that I've been a christian, 5 or so years, I've more or less always struggled with reading God's word. I have tried different reading plans, translations, languages (Estonian and English), different locations, times etc. Nothing has got me hooked on it just yet. But i am working on it still. So Since i know my...