sick

For recent weeks, no, i think more like months, i have felt like i have been attacked. Not that someone had attacked me, no-no! But that me as a person have been under attack. Not by people, but by problems. See i've been sick. I can't tell you i have been VERY sick, because you might assume then that i have cancer or something. Which i don't. Not that i know of at least (sorry for my morbid humour here). Anyway, my health has been rather strange. And as a soul, spiritual being as we are as humans, it's rather annoying to be in a non-functional body. I feel the terrible need to fix it. To...

I wake up and feel, well to be honest terrible. I crawl out of my bed with aches and pains and my stomach feeling weird. I keep remember what a friend (H) said the other day. "Mirjam, have you thought that maybe this is God putting you through things so you might have the gift of prophecy, they had also a lot of struggles in the Bible. Prophetic people. " And i have constantly thought about that. I don't know what is wrong with me. And why. It is hard to even battle the mental stuff, but add the physical and i am just exhausted. I tried enjoying myself yesterday and then waking up today, i...

I have no idea what is going on with my body. No, i won't creep you out but just try putting down, what is going on with my health. It's been strange lately. And by lately i mean... well about couple of months at least.
At this point, i can't even remember what was the first thing that hit me. But right now, there's quite a few things at the same time. Not sure if they are related or not, but they sure have made my life well hard. Currently in bed with a headache. I can probably assume it's from the fact that i want to quit coffee. And maybe little jetlag. After all i arrived on saturday...